Eddie Arana, Rick Thibodeau, & Chris Bakunas San Diego, Ca. March 2012

Eddie Arana, Rick Thibodeau, & Chris Bakunas San Diego, Ca. March 2012
Eddie Arana, Rick Thibodeau, & Chris Bakunas at Luche Libre Taco Shop in San Diego, March 2012

Sunday, June 12, 2016

The Burden Of Friendship

Epiphanies. Such a pain in the arse. Ever have one? I have


Had one just a few days ago in fact

It is a somewhat complicated, very involved story, but the gist is, I have come to the realization that I am a person's burden. And I am that burden due to my friendship with that person

This person, this friend, has evidently been put in a position wherein he has had to cover for my less than exemplary behavior. He has had to make excuses for me, justify his relationship with me

And, apparently, he has had to lie for me 

The entire time he has been under this burden I have been under the disillusion that I was carrying my own weight in the friendship/relationship we had

I honestly thought I had been holding up my end of the deal

Recently though, it was made clear that every motivation I had for doing anything that I thought construed as holding up my end of the friendship dealio was just selfishness on my part 

It's been a horrible realization, as it means there is only one way for me to relive the burden that I have placed on this friendship

And that, of course, is to dissolve the bonds which have connected us as friends


  1. Or talk to them. It would be lack of communication that ends the friendship, not being a burden.

  2. It really depends on what these less than exemplary behaviors are.
    I think that anyone that has spent enough time with you and gets Chris probably would want to keep your friendship and is probably not burdened by it

  3. I agree. What you think is a burden might not be to the other person. Some differences and actions are worth ignoring to keep a friendship. I think if it were a burden, the friendship would have ended a long time ago.