A few days earlier, he had allowed himself the mercy of finally accepting the lumpiness of his body...but then came the judgement of his peers... men who had spent years, possibly decades, pondering their place in the union of men who let their physical conditioning slide...and it hit him like a bag of flying mallets.
He had crossed over. He had left the realm of the chubby and was now...fat.
"So, now what?" was all he could think as he stared into the mirror. "So what do I have to do now to lose all this extra weight?"
It wasn't so much a question he was asking himself as it was a backhanded confession of sorts. It was a see-what-your-recent-behavior-has-led-to accusation, actually.
Because he knew the answer was simply, "Stop doing what you're doing".
An answer that he didn't want to hear, and certainly did not want to have to recognize as...true.
Eddie Arana, Rick Thibodeau, & Chris Bakunas San Diego, Ca. March 2012
Eddie Arana, Rick Thibodeau, & Chris Bakunas at Luche Libre Taco Shop in San Diego, March 2012
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